" What Desirest Thou?"

There are a lot of things that happen in my life or a lot of situations I find myself in that are beyond my control. However, as I carefully examine each part of those situations afterwards, I always seem to realize that self control could have helped me avoid these situations... or perhaps building a stronger foundation on the gospel of Jesus Christ could have made a big difference in how I acted or reacted when faced with these situations. This week, I definitely fell short of the grace and love of God, or so I think. I ran into many situations in which I thought that my only answer was to lie, be dishonest, judge others, and succumb to carnal desires. I denied myself so many times of the opportunity to allow the spirit to abide with me, guide me, warn me of danger and protect me. I distanced myself from the love of God. There were definitely moments of happiness during my week but it was only superficial. When I found myself alone, I felt miserable that I had made so many poor choices and thought that repentance could never help However, as I read the scriptures, everything changed. 1 Nephi 11 verse 2 pierced my soul like it never did before. it says: '' And the Spirit said unto me: Behold, what desirest thou?'' I thought about what I most wanted. What I most want right ow is to make my Father in Heaven happy by following all of his commandments. I desired happiness and the least amount of regrets possible. I desire the abundance of his spirit . I desire all good things. Thinking about what I desire help me to understand how I need to live my life everyday so that I may accomplish my goals. I am deciding now that I want to do the Lord's will and I know he will help me stay true to my decision and better resist temptations. Knowing what I want truly makes living the gospel of Jesus Christ easier.