This is not your burden

    I had one of those weeks where everything started bad and I felt as if the Universe was punishing me. I felt like I deserved all that was happening because I have not been a "good girl" lately. I have not been praying as often as I should, nor reading the scriptures,  or serving others. In general I have been a bad person, one could conclude. I spent monday and tuesday thinking about what I could do to change my situation, but I  failed to come up with a solution. However, on wednesday, the answer came unexpectedly as I sat in my Book of Mormon class. We were dissecting chapter 2 of second Nephi when all of the sudden our professor stop and said something that changed my perspective for good. Something I needed to hear. He told us that we needed to stop beating ourselves for being bad people. He said that we needed to remember that we have been living in our physical bodies for has long as we are alive but have been spiritual beings for eternities. So maybe we had a decade of bad in us but we have eternities of good and us, so we should not let the bad have more importance than the good.When he said that, my heart felt so calm because I knew that it was the Lord's words of comfort to me, his dearest daughter. It made me think of my Savior Jesus Christ and his atoning sacrifice for me, and of course one of the scriptures that I used to read over and over on my mission came to me. Doctrine and Covenants 19:16-18: 
For behold, I, God, have suffered these things for all, that they might not suffer if they would repent;

 17 But if they would not repent they must suffer even as I; 18 Which suffering caused myself, even God, the greatest of all, to tremble because of pain, and to bleed at every pore, and to suffer both body and spirit—and would that I might not drink the bitter cup, and shrink— I decided that from now on , I was going to let Jesus Christ take care of it all. All I needed to do was repent , start again and let my Savior Jesus Christ take care of the rest. After all, I will never be able to carry my own burdens without his intercession. I am grateful for the atonement of my Savior that I can use in times of trials, happiness, sadness, etc... It is the force through which I can be a better Dhina every day, every hour, every minute and every second of my life. I know that my Savior lives and loves me more than I can comprehend.